The Endless Dream

It’s always the aftermath of the bad days that suck the most , i feel like i am walking around in a post apocalyptic world with all my friends dead and i am just a lone human being except the worse thing about it is that i’m not i see them right there they are here by side yet something is disconnecting us. Maybe it’s my insecurites , maybe it’s because i am in love , or maybe even just because i don’t know where i am going but the thing is i know i’m lost and i’m trying to find my way , i am looking for help but it’s hard to find these days days i dont know why , maybe it was always hard to find i can’t say i haven’t lived forever and i hope i don’t live forever that would be awful. I just feel like i am trapped behind a glass and everybody can see my pain and struggle and they just observe it yet they don’t care i’m like an animal at the zoo i want to escape and people come to vist me but they never help they just point and stare and it’s day after day after day of it. I’m not a quitter but sometimes i get tired of fighting and it wears me out so if you ever see me down you know why it’s not because i’m a quitter it’s because i’m tired of it all and i try my very hardest to be a better human being and nobody can take that away from me.

i just love all my friends and i want it returned is that so bad ?