The Endless Dream


March 1, 2009, 9:30 am
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as i sit back in this room with four walls i am thinking about that date that is coming faster then i thought it would be coming i am wondering what that day will be like ? what she be the same will i be the same i don’t care if we aren’t the same i just want things to stay good or at least we are still best friends i dont want to be left behind in the dark or basically what i am trying to say with all this because honestly my mind is a little gone right now hmmm

i hope she still accepts me , i’ll accept her always unless she’s fucking weird like trying to throw me in a dungen then no i would not accept her that would be weird. ahh life is life god has a plan i suppose what can a kid like me do except live and feel like i wanna die everyday pray for me get at me.



?Uestion.
February 19, 2009, 6:51 am
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i took the news hard when i found out at first i cried then i laughed a bit and now i can’t even feel any emotion about it , she seemed like my missing part now i’m here and she’s there what do i do ? Move on.. ? Stay here ? or just try my best to live i guess i’ll do what i always do when things like this happen i write down my thoughts bury them in the back of my head forever and try to forget why i fell in love in the first place.

so i ask myself when will i stop writing these types of things am i a bad person ? who knows, who cares i do what i do you do what you do we all got pain some just afraid to show it but it’s still there.

it’s just no good



The Gospel ?
January 21, 2009, 7:21 am
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Remain lost on the outskirts I done felt the pain and it hurts, love left a bittersweet taste in my mouth I knock down the mental walls build upon my old dreams create new objects with new words because I left the old me behind but my mind is a haunted castle and I’m like Dracula in love with sunlight it just won’t work so if anybody ask you who I be , say I’m just a prize fighter with a broken down pen trying to win again and somebody said I fell off nigga fuck your opinion because I’m gonna stay winning so what you got to say does not concern me at all because if I ever fall believe me this you fell a long time ago how do I know because you ain’t never been as good as me you were just a shadow among the light you clueless to how the machine works you got played for a sucker then tossed out because you useless , up all night watching documentaries on old wars wondering how come this world so fucked up but it’s quite obvious we just would rather not seek the truth and hide behind the lies what a pity because we ain’t moving forward at all we falling back into the oppression and the devils is tricking us calling it bliss but what we all miss will kill us in the end because if we don’t grow we vanish among the rest of the robots that they call people so if a nigga wanna do something new I ain’t saying he can’t be he better know his facts before he makes an attack because the tv keeps flashing images of hope and most men fall into the ambush that was set up by a higher being so if you truly want to escape you gotta take control of what you believe in and until then don’t complain no need to explain because the other side don’t care they just take what you say twist it all around and use your words against you so move in secret



GO MARTIN! MAN I AM DYING!
January 17, 2009, 11:56 am
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in cali right now ya know just doing it big at 4 in the AM , living life still missing my gillas back in the ‘attle but this makes me happy ,peeep this right here money



Def Chappelle
January 17, 2009, 11:51 am
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Respect , The Writer
January 14, 2009, 5:52 am
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You carry around a bag full of broken hearts wear them like badges you won in a war but you aren’t done casting spells yet you won’t be happy until everybody you meet dies in hell, you never really stand still because peace and quiet is the only thing you fear and when people tell you things you don’t want to hear you turn them off like light switches do you even know what real life feels like because whenever I see you , you seem to be running away from something you act like nothing bothers you but who am I to judge more power to you if you can really withstands life’s ills but don’t tell me you know what it’s like to be me because we both walked different paths so don’t ask me what’s wrong when you don’t really care but I ain’t really mad either I just call it like I see it so if you see it different then forgive me because I only got these two eyes and they’ve lied to me before and these conspiracy theories twist my thoughts around so I can’t rely on my thoughts I just gotta go off how I feel if what I feel is a mistake then take everything I said and throw it away maybe one day I’ll outgrow the misery but until then just walk with me you talk at me but never talk to me if whenever I fall back you never come back to come get me you just move along before anybody seen you was even with me so whats that make me feel like inside like I ain’t worth anything and it doesn’t hurt my pride it hurts my heart because that’s the only thing that doesn’t lie to me these days but like I said before I ain’t mad at cha I’m just speaking my half of the story take what I say with a grain of salt you ain’t even gotta like it just please respect it



Personal Note.
December 11, 2008, 7:45 am
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I don’t think i’m strong enough and i’m already feeling it , somebody be there to catch me when i fall.



Tweet , Etc.
December 4, 2008, 4:33 am
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http://twitter.com/Skimasksoldier

follow me!

P.s 808’s and Heartbreaks is amazing i love that cd so much. Also The Wrestler will soon be out , i can’t wait i hope it’s as good as it looks i’ve been wanting to see that since at least summer.



Still High In Seattle!

method man and redman! this concert was so ill i wish i could relive it again and again



My President is Black
November 5, 2008, 9:28 am
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Obama you did it! Made history .. do it real big i got faith in you